A letter to someone who made me feel special

 It's been quite a while since the last time I saw you as "mine". I will talk about you again here, sorry, but for the time being this is my "mind". I ought to have said this a long time ago, in that time actually, but I couldn't because I'm weak, and I'm writing here, because I still am. Even after our meeting subsequent to that, you were kind and sweet, as always, and that made me happy, truly, to talk again, just to be in the same space. It was good, and comforting, even though it was a little "strange", and I know it's odd to use comforting and strange together, but I hope you understand. You don't realise what you've lost until you've really lost it, and how good it was, as I said, I didn't have the opportunity to express what I felt, I thank you for all the mornings, afternoons and nights I spent with you, particularly those first ones, where you simply hugged me, that alone made me happy, and our unconventional walks, which were incredible and one-of-a-kind (they genuinely were), and also the simple moments of watching kitten videos, yes, they were wonderful, all of them, without exception. I'd be lying if I said it was perfect, it wasn't, and that's okay, normal, if I had the chance to go back in time, I wouldn't, it is what it is, but I miss the memories, the moments, and the peculiar conversations, if in the future, for some reason, we reunite again, I'll be fine with that, if not, I'll be fine too, even though it might be a tad uncomfortable perhaps the above hypothesis, but we never know. Anyway, may the future be benevolent to all of us.

Thank you for everything.

Loneliness and loss.

 Hello visitor, nice to see you. won't talk about films or music, but a little about my days so

far. July 15th was a good day for me, and the days that followed were very good. was stuck in

a certain loop before everything happened, but this "little bird” got me out of that loop and

made me fly alongside it. | am grateful to have seen every landscape with the little bird, but it

has flown away. Was it meant to be? don't know, maybe the sisters of fate really thought it

was the best, but it was painful to see the little bird flap its wings alone. It was terrible, but 

got used to it. Soon after the torment, an angel came and saved me again, and thought,

"How incredible this angel is." And it really was, this angel was the dearest of all. He gave me

wings again, but the angel had to return to heaven, his home. And once again, suffered

because what am without someone guiding me in this uncertain world? Anyway, it was no

surprise, everything ends and falls apart at some point, but for me, think it's intentional.

consider myself someone without luck, without hope for a good day or a good moment

because know in the end they will have to leave. If there is anyone the universe hates, it has

to be me, and that's fine. It has been like this and will continue to be like this, alone and

always. But being alone means being with yourself, and am afraid of myself. don't want to

see him, think that's why loneliness hurts so much, we are afraid to meet ourselves. But this

does not apply to you, as you are not me, so live and love, for that is the most beautiful feeling we can show to someone.

Loveless, my love, my peace, my bloody valentine...

I could stay for hours talking about my favorite albums (or at least I think they are), since I love music since I was a child. Today, I'll talk about "Loveless" by My Bloody Valentine, one of my loves. My first contact with MBV was through a mashup, I don't remember, I wasn't so into rock music at the time, so I thought it was cool, but I wasn't interested in exploring it further. Then we arrived in 2022 (June or July) and I started reading "Aku no Hana," another of my loves that I'll talk about on another occasion. Anyway, while reading, I realized that I needed a little more "esteem," so I played "Loveless" without pretension, just played it, and I'm happy I did that. The album is everything I was looking for: distortion, the tremolo effect that sounded like a VHS, reverb and delays, simply a sonic and colorful explosion, which ends up being one of the album's proposals. I had never heard anything like it before, it was just so beautiful, like a mix of feelings, a slow poem from an uncomprehended poet that will be brilliant 200 years after his death. "Loveless" for me is a masterpiece, something that if I were Kevin, I would be proud of forever. "Loveless" will always be with me, to save me from the great emptiness I feel, and what better way than with a lot of distortion? I could talk about how the album was made to be more charming for the blog, but I'm the worst storyteller, so sorry. I hope you enjoyed hearing my tale stalker, and to the 4 of MBV, thank you for creating something so beautiful, I will always love your work.

 

A quick one before torment.

Hello i guess, well, don't expect good writings, and cool opinions, I'm just a teenager trying to pass the time. I am gonna post my fav albums, movies, manga, my mind loop, whatever i want, after all it's my blog. For now, stay in peace, and found some happiness on nature and animals.